Chemo #3 is done. I have discovered the joy of "baby" hats (caps made of t-shirt material) to keep my head warm. I have also found much joy strolling my our yard where the beauty of spring abounds. I am so grateful that I have been able to go for my walk nearly every day because being outside makes me feel better. I have spend most of my waking hours laying on our sofa this past week where I can gaze out the window and see so many birds. Everything from hawks searching for mice to a tiny yellow canary type bird that flits from tree to tree. With the amount of rain we have been getting I can not help but ponder how differently different birds respond to the rain: the duck does not care, the chicken panics, the robin sings when it is over. I truly hope that I can be a robin.Moses was sent into the wilderness for 40 years because God wanted him to develop skills that he had not acquired in the formal Egyptian education. So I can not help but ask ... What is this experience teaching me? When I go for days without the ability to eat .... what is it teaching me? When I go for nights without sleep because of a whiplash injury that is flaring up .... what is it teaching me? Right now, all I can do is pray that God will help me through my trials.
Isaiah 41:10 tells us that God will give us the strength that we need.
" Fear not, for I am with you;Be not dismayed for I am your God.
I will strengthen you.
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My righteous
right hand."
further on in Isaiah 49:14-15 it reminds us that God will not forget us.
14 "But Zion said, ' The Lord has forsaken me.
And my Lord has forgotten me.'
15 " Can a woman forget her nursing child,
And not have compassion on the son of her womb?
Surely they may forget,
Yet I will not forget you."
With all my experience breast feeding my own children, I know that I will never forget my children. Forty-five years later my mom still does her best for me. So I know that God will not forget us. Perhaps, this experience is teaching me to totally depend on my Father in Heaven. I may never know the answer to this until the second coming.
May we all experience the many blessings and much love that surround us. May we also remember that God remembers us and will give us the strength that we need to get through our trials. God bless you.
