Monday, I got the call. I was sitting at my desk at work ... first day back in almost two years. I had been there about 1.5 hours. The phone rang and it was my surgeon. His words to me were, "This is trouble. I need to see you today so that we can lay out a plan."The Tuesday prior I had been in my surgeon's office for a checkup when I pointed out a 'thickness' on the upper backside of my left arm. He took a biopsy and immediately booked a CT scan. The CT scan happened that Thursday. And now surgery is booked for Friday, January 23, 2015. He is planning on taking my left triceps and missing the nerve that controls my left hand. I would like to still be able to use my left hand but as I told him before, " If you need to take the whole arm.". The good news in all this is that I am NOT stage 4. The cancer is still local and being dealt with very quickly.
I was feeling kind of numb about this and was struggling with my perspective on this whole thing when a few things happened.
1. I overheard something while waiting for my appointment with the surgeon that I was not meant to hear. It made me shake my head and realize that things could be a lot worse.
2. A recent news story hit the internet about Dionne Warner. CBC news Twenty years fighting the breast cancer and 7 times she has had it reoccur.
3. At church this weekend there was a beautiful young mom who struggles with kidney failure. She has a son who needs surgery again for the third time. The congregation was asked to pray for them both.
Do you know what? I am not that bad off and I have more people to add to my prayer list. In fact, I would even say that I am blessed! I am in God's hands and He is taking care of me.
I also had an epiphany when I realized that my focus should be on staying healthy and being here for my family. I am actually considering a quest or an attempt to discover what I need to do to stop this disease from coming back.
"... seek and ye will find ...." Matthew 7:7
May God bless you, guide you, and be close to you. Love, Holly
