"Never say Never"

 Life has handed me a plate of new experiences.  I have always had a stubborn streak ... one that allowed myself to say " I will never ...".  All I can say is that cancer has changed things.  Here are a some things that come to mind ...

• Tattoos ... no choice because they are needed for radiation mapping.
• Boob job .... still thinking on this one
• Stuffing my bra ... Yes ... I admit it! It helps me to camouflage the extent of my experience. 
• Dependent vs. independent ... Just give up ... take help whenever it is offered.  There are lots of things that I needed help with whether I admitted it or not
• White gloves ... they worked ... and so kept germs away
• Wear a wig ... this is funny ... so not 'me' until now ... who am I anyway?
• Toss the wig off ... if it gets too itchy or hot pull it off and go commando
• Embrace the baldness ... it feels awesome!
• Draw on eyebrows ... because it really is fun!
• Look forward to a boy haircut ... can't wait until my hair is long enough for one.
• Primping ... hours of it. Really! It helps soften the side effects of my treatments ... self care from cuticles to mouth care to eyes ... it sometimes feels like it will never end ... I do have really soft skin. :)
• Me 1st ... Wow!! Wave the white flag ... I had to be physically beaten down but I finally did figure out that if I did not put myself first I was not going to get better.  Cancer forces one to be self centered.  (which is very OK.)
• 'Stuck up' and it is OK... positive happy people are the ones who I wish to be around me.
• Cry anytime and anywhere ... It is important to just let it out!
• Talk to my cancer .... "Get out of my body cancer!You are not welcome!
• 'Let it go' ... if it is meant to be then it will be ...

Radiation is scheduled to start at the end of the week.  And as my dear Aunty Fern said to me ... Worry about nothing.  Pray with thanksgiving. Make you request known to God.  "And the peace of God which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."  Philippians 4:6,7

Additions:

• December 12 - Today I was instructed by the Radiation Tech that I need to spend at least an hour a day topless.  Air is good from my skin. So during radiation, I will be strolling around the house topless.   Please, call if you plan a visit. :)