Shattered Reality .....

After a few days, I am finally able to get my head around the events of last Wednesday.  

First, I met with my surgeon who informed me that the surgery was not a success.  There were clear indications in the pathology report that the cancer had spread and that it was still alive and well in my system.  He also told me that I would probably need more surgery and that would be decided by a more experienced cancer surgeon.  

Next, I went to see my oncologist who told me that the pathology report indicated that the chemo regime I had been on was not working.  He wants me to have another CT scan to ensure the cancer has not travelled to other parts of my body in the last two months.  Ugh!!   He was changing the drugs and I was to go straight from his office to meet another surgeon who would decide what to do with me.  

I literally ran from the Tom Baker Cancer Centre to the Women Health Clinic to meet with the new surgeon.  After consulting with me and reviewing my health history and pathology reports, he decided that he would proceed with very aggressive surgery.  I told him, "Let's get on it.  Sooner is better." 

I then had to run back to the Tom Baker to the pharmacy to meet with the pharmacist and get my giant bag of pills that I was to start taking.

These events left me feeling shattered.  Things had gone from being OK to panic mode in one afternoon just because of a single pathology report.

Again, I am clinging to God's promises and praying that God takes over my health issues and that He takes the cancer from my body. 

I am, once again, in fighting mode.  Get on with the surgery.  I so want this whole experience to be done and over with.

"... let us run with perseverance the race that is set before us ..." Hebrews 12:1